Subhanallah Walhamdulillah Walaailaahaillallah Allahu Akbar…
lagi2 Allah dengan keMaha sempurnaanNya sempurna menunjukkan kembali sebuah hikmah dlm perjalanan hidupku yang cukup rumit ini..
ehem 😉 let’s start…
a nice chat with my very best friend yesterday really hit me…yeah, we’re talking about the right man for us..and for me, i choose SUPERMAN itself 🙂
silly, but it’s true..it takes a superman high quality to start a serious relationship with me…well, with all the complicated problems in my life…this man should strong enough to stand beside me, getting through all my ups and down, care enough to let me in his entire-secretly life, and surely strong enough to lift me up in the sky…cos yeah sometimes i need it a lot ! 😀
then..i have to realize, there’s no such thing as superman…it just a myth-warner’s character-not happen in life such a thing…*sigh*
then, maybe i have to start thinking getting through the rest of my life..alone..taking care my only-love Ais with my own heart, my own two hands…sure, i have to be “Ikhlas” when one day, the little child become a man and don’t need me as much as he need me now…sure 😦
but yeah, that’s life…that’s mine… 🙂 so i’ll take it as Takdir Allah…and i believe Takdir Allah is what best for me…right? 🙂
and sure, i relief…yeah, it hard…but it’s mine..like it or not..
although, some people said, poor Ais..his mother always leave him home-alone with his Gran..and poor his Gran (semoga Allah merahmati mama dan papaku yang lagi2 hrs berkorban..*tears*)
so hurt me though…cause that’s not what i’m dreaming of…become a working mother, leaving home from fajr to twilight..have to leave my only heart at home..and most of all, make my folks so tired taking care the 5 yr old-never stop rolling over-screaming–grandchild.. 😦
Ya Robbana..ampuni hamba yang selalu dan selalu saja menyusahkan mama dan papa…but i never choose this, right?please, beri hamba kesabaran..beri hamba kekuatan menapaki hari…kekuatan yang mampu membuat kepalaku tegak lagi…shg suatu hari Ais akan memandangku…and be proud!
dan hikmahMu hari ini Ya Robbana…mungkin aku ga akan pernah menemukan superman ku…tp i won’t complaint My Robb…As long as YOU stay here with me Robbana..don’t ever leave me..please Ya Robb…please…. T__T