How bad it is…for being me?^__^

As Salam my dear diary….

love sore n myself….haha…so me isnt it?🙂

but somehow a few people got curious…how it is like..for being me….a single mother with 6th y o boy facing the world…all alone….seems so scary isnt it?

and she asked me that question…how it’s like, ninta?bad, or super bad?

well, when i said, its not too bad….she starts to laugh at me….ah, u just a big lier, she said….

but i’m not….🙂

now, i’m telling u all the truth….

u see, i always be honest to my self….in life…there’s a bitter sweet…sometimes u laugh…and some other times u cry….there’s a smile icon….and also a sad and a crying one with little tears on it….yup, thats life….i choose to enjoy every minute🙂

dear, when it comes to an ideal life….u name it….life will be complete when u have someone besides u, to hold n loved…to stand for u in bad n good….till death do us part…..hahaha sound familier isnt it?

but life is not always ideal…. u see, there’s people like me, who has to stand by herself….and still be grateful….every second….🙂

i have a special kind of life….with a special son…with a special way to express it….well, u can sometimes found me crying for myself, write in ironic way how bad the condition ruin me, how it’s feel when u envy the perfect….but i got through all that…falling but choose not to fail….just being me…myself …n be proud of it🙂

and the best part is….ALLAH selalu dekat….it’s always a reason to be grateful, no matter how bad the world made me feel…. just like the day, when i accidentally “found” this ayat…

Dan apabila hamba2 KU bertanya kpdmu (Muhammad) ttg AKU,maka sesungguhnya AKU dekat.AKU kabulkan permohonan org yg bdoa apabila dia bdoa kpdKU.hendaklah mrk itu memenuhi perintahKU & beriman kpdKU,agar mrk memperoleh kebenaran (Al Baqarah 186)

Maha Benar ALLAH….Sang Pemilik Hati….Sang Pemilik Raga Yang Meminta…..ALLAHUALLAHUALLAH……

not blaming her for being so curious…. well, it might be my fault, maybe i seems too fragile to face this world…so i start to worry everybody….

see, i past the worse part….so i believe..Insya ALLAH…i’ll get through everything…as long as i have ALLAH on my side….no fear…no worry….ah, jangan pernah tinggalkan kami, Robb…aamiin

hmmm, i knew i made a lot of mistakes….keep complaining is the worse….but from now on…Insya ALLAH, i’ll keep remaining myself to count all my blessing…..everyday…every single breath i allow to take….

ah, just remember, a friend told me….everytime u allow to open ur eyes in the morning, count all the blessing….for the air…for the age…for more minutes ALLAH gives u….untuk kesempatan beribadah..untuk kesempatan bertaubat….untuk mampu melihat our kids growing….ah, it’s all priceless, isnt it?…so count….and count….till u out of fingers🙂

so, asking me again, gals….”how bad it is, for being you??”

and my answer is….

nothing bad….its so…GREAT!!!!! ^__^

love u, my dear diary….and please tell all my best friends i love them so much…..karena ALLAH…karena ALLAH….. ^__^

well, i have a big dream, dear….please pray for me….semoga ALLAH Ridho dan mempermudah segalanya…aamin…

take care… ^__^

4 Komentar (+add yours?)

  1. nna
    Jul 01, 2010 @ 11:04:34

    pelokk Ninta…
    u’re the best Nta…
    selalu bersyukur & berpikiran positif akan bikin kita bisa tersenyum… **[i]gw ngomong apa siy[/i]** xiixix…
    hebat lah pokoknya.. kalo gue udah selalu menye2 kali tiap harinya…

    Balas

    • anintadiary
      Jul 01, 2010 @ 20:01:06

      *peluuukkk nna*

      hehe…ga gt jg say….gw yakin koq, ketika ALLAH kasi cobaan, DIA jg sertakan kekuatan utk ngejalaninnya….dah ada takarannya, gt ktnya ^__^

      thx ya say…..take care

      Balas

  2. lia
    Jul 04, 2010 @ 17:35:41

    Roro…..
    Roro gitu loh…..

    Love you and ais…
    Ngah Ia

    Balas

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